well, a lot of things has happened since i've last written. it's weird how you work so hard on something, then feel relief for finishing, yet the finished project was so short-lived. makes you wonder what was all the effort worth? i think that it's easy for time to pass when it's so jam-packed with stuff. and that's just what it is... stuff... not really something of substance or worth. is it? i wonder. this week has been super hectic. it's been a long time since i've been this worn out. so worn out... no time to even email. hee hee hee. not like that's a big loss. probably better anyways. more and more i am seeing how much work this new service is going to be. wow. it's a lot. wow. i am sad to have to leave youth service. it's time though. i know it. God knows it. well, i know it because God knows it. I know God is leading me towards something bigger. it's a challenge. wow. i feel a bit unworthy with all the responsibility pastor steve is giving me. wow. so much is left to my judgment (or lack of?). well, as someone said, "is it a life or death decision?" i had to tell him that no it isn't. i know i can always count on him to help me put things into perspective. that's just what i need. i'm glad for that. but i digress... yes, back to me vent about my busy life... well, not really needing to vent, but i'm so tired that my mind is jumbled and i am not as coherent as i should be. hee hee hee. should i go to sleep or do work? always work to do. always. but i can't think. so here i am rambling....

okay... enough of that. i am thankful for God's blessings... with my great class, with my family, and my friends. i'm happy that ryan and megan are home. seems so short though. i haven't been home much so i haven't really talked to them. am glad boy-boy is coming snowboarding. that'll give me more time to talk to him before he goes back to cal poly on sunday. aww. my kids are the greatest. i asked for volunteers to put on a play for story time marathon. they were so great. they took initiative and took care of everything. greg is so funny. he kept saying, "listen up guys!" he took charge. i wish i had the energy to type up all that he did. he got everyone organized. he's so funny.

ahhh... i think i am just gonna go to sleep. will need all my energy for story time marathon. plus, need energy for snowboarding saturday. ahhh... i love the snow. i wanna live there some day.

my wishes:
- to meet michael w. smith, co-write a song, play piano with him, and just jam... what a musician!
- to own a house in tahoe
- to go to nashville and check out the music biz
- to design and have a sound-proof room in my house and/or my own studio

ahhh... it's nice to dream =)

but seriously... i am thankful for God's provisions for me. He meets my every need. i am so blessed. thank you, Lord!
psalm 108