ahhh... spring break. there's so much i'd like to do during break. actually, i wish i could stay in tahoe all week. after spring break, the rest of the school year will pass so quickly. it always does. so, this is the 2nd day of spring break. so far i have: done laundry, folded clothes, reorganized my cds, updated my verse journal, packed for my trip, talked on the phone, emailed, IMed, took my car in to get the brakes inspected and to get an oil change, took my watch in to get the battery replaced, watched "legally blonde" and "lord of the flies", created a new webpage for LC, practiced piano, practiced guitar, graded papers, worked on the worship document for the new service, visited mere at work, had lunch in sf, and... hmm.... that's about it. wow. a lot in 2 days. tomorrow (wed), i'll go out to lunch, maybe watch a movie, dye eggs with evan and tyler, hang out with the xlg people, and meet with cyndi. thurs-sat- SNOWBOARDING!!! my last days of the season. man, i can't wait!!! ahhh... i love the snow! i'm glad the mah's are coming. they're great! hmmmm.... will be interesting saturday. i wonder if we'll all end up at sierra. won't that be interesting. well, it's up to God.
with the meetings and interactions with people lately, i think that God is reminding me to just let things go... especially when things irk me. like those people at the meeting. i already knew they get to me, but working with them causes more interaction... interaction that i usually avoid. so.... what else could it be, but God teaching me to not let them get to me and let their comments and their narrowmindedness and pushy ways (don't i sound tolerant? hee hee hee) just roll off my back.... "whatever!" that will be one of the new "words often uttered by hillary"... or at least "words often thought by hillary". they bug me. i'm not looking forward to seeing her on saturday either. she bugs me most. as someone once told me, "hil, you need to work on that". of course, that is a guy who doesn't understand the vibes girls give each other. i betcha mich or tina or karen would understand. pam or cyndi would understand too. girls can be so vicious to each other. soooo vicious. i think most guys are oblivious to that 'cuz those are the girls that play guys and act one way to them and another way to us. i hope my daughter will never be like that. oooh... that would be awful. oooh.... i hope the girl that marries my brother won't be like that... that would be even worse. but i know my brother is not that stupid... at least not anymore. hee hee hee. he's learned his lesson, i know. thank goodness!
anyways, still need to work on that worship document. it's difficult because, like cyndi said, it means so much to me... it's something i feel so strongly about that it's hard for me to be unbiased. plus, i actually believe in what it says and agree with the views stated in the document. i know that's why initially i didn't see problems with it. i guess some would argue the point saying that we're insisting our style is better. not better though, just different. however, our style arose from the turn-offs experienced in other styles. the fakeness... the stage performance. yuck. it's a big turn off. authenticity is key, but rarely seen in the current setting. i don't know. there's so much involved with this new service. i think it's almost a full time job. maybe it'll be better once school is over. hmmm... maybe. i've been told that i'm still involved in too much and that i should consider dropping more ministries. how can i do that? well, it would be LC next, but i don't want to do that. i've already sacrificed youth service. man... i'm gonna miss it so much. i want to drop mag team... but i need to represent the new service. hmmm... what's left? one achord? can't do that. so... does that mean LC is next??? something to think about....
