it's neat how God works. it's neat how God uses situations and things in our lives for stuff to come. you don't understand it or even realize it, but God has a purpose and a plan and everything that happens happens for a reason or at least God uses those things that do happen for something. this week my students were reading this story about this man who founded a great town, and it all started because his axle broke. we discussed how unexpected things happen and then something good comes from it. it reminded me of God's goodness and His control over everything. it's very comforting, knowing that God is in control and is working even when i don't/can't see it. wow.
my heart is pounding right now. why? i'm supposed to speak in lc tonight. first time giving a message. hmmm... i know that God has given this opportunity for a reason. i know that God has taught me a lot these past few years. i'm not scared about speaking, but still i have this weird feeling in my stomach... kinda a fluttery feeling... butterflies. it's weird. i need God to help calm me down... and catch those butterflies. hee hee hee... yep. thank You Lord for giving me this opportunity... a chance to share what You have taught me... and are still teaching me... thank You. what a wondrous God You are. from my heart..."i want to know You more..."
blah blah blah blah blah. spring break is over. so quick. too quick. this week will be busy. finally had practice for anna's wedding. super short practice. almost not worth meeting. tomorrow is recording. don't want to talk about my song. i know what jon would say..."be flexible". but it's my song... and my name is on it.... and if they change it.... it's not what i meant. *sigh* not looking forward to it. wednesday is xlg. thursday is practice again. when's the wedding rehearsal? man.... don't know what i'm doing for that. sunday is a super busy day. 12:15-2:00 home team, 2:00-3:30 skit practice, 3:30-5:30 mag team mtg, 6:00-9:00 xp/new service mtg. man. busy busy busy.
talked to tina today. i miss her. i miss karen too. and i miss grace. why did they have to move to the east coast? i should move there too. tina said i'm patient. doesn't feel like it though. really doesn't feel like it. now is when i need those 3 the most. i'm happy for her though... her and court. i'm glad. hope things will continue to work out. i can't wait to meet him.
music is such a good way for me to express myself. music speaks in so many ways. this song is great. i can just picture that guy michael passons playing the keyboard, singing this song during one of the avalon concerts. it's the first song on my playlist at school.
"Come and Fill My Heart" - Avalon
Free I long to be free
I long for the day I'll believe
That all you say you see in me is true
It's hard for me to do
It's hard for me to die to myself
Entrust my life to someone else
So come, empty me out
I'm no good without
You inside of me
Come and fill my heart with hope
Come and fill my life with love
Come and fill my soul
With strength to carry on
Because from here
The climb is steep, the road is long
Come and fill my days with dreams
Empty me of all the empty things
That I hold onto
Come and fill my heart with you
I, I need you in my life
I need you like the air that I breathe
You've become the very heart of me
And I, I can't believe my eyes
Can't believe the dream that I've found
You know you've turned my world around
So come fill up my heart
We're never apart
You're deep inside of me
Come and fill my heart with hope
Come and fill my life with love
Come and fill my soul
With strength to carry on
Because from here
The climb is steep, the road is long
Come and fill my days with dreams
Empty me of all the empty things
That I hold onto
Come and fill my heart with you
Search me now, try my heart
Come and take me now
And make me new
So that all of the world
Will see you
Overflow in my life
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