found out that my friend's grandmother had a stroke and is in the hospital. it made me think of my own grandmother and how she had a stroke the day before she died. it's been a year and a half. i miss her. i know my mom misses her most. at the last lc committee meeting one of the high schoolers asked why God allows bad things to happen. right away i thought about my grandma dying. i don't think she was saved. i know that my mom had witnessed to her many times before. i don't know... maybe she did accept the Lord before she died. it makes me sad to think of her suffering and it hurts knowing that i might never see her again. then it scares me because if there's no sadness in Heaven, does that mean i won't remember her when i'm there? i think so. i wish that my children could have known her. i wish that my husband could have known her. i know that God is sovereign and in control and I know that God allows things to happen for a reason. i think about it and wonder what that reason is. maybe i won't ever know. i know though that i can rest assured in God's comfort and His omniscience. and yet, the tears still flow...
in a few days there's that concert i've been looking forward to. but right now, it just seems so insignificant.... will be praying for my friend's grandma... for her salvation and for him and his family.

only 3 and a half more weeks of school. i can't believe it. i think this year has passed the quickest. that's 3 and a half short weeks spent with my little ones. more importantly only 3 and a half short weeks left to win those children for the Lord. my goal: for all my children to accept Jesus as their personal Savior. time is so short and fleeting. every moment counts.