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today i had long meetings. i think out of the whole day, 8:30-4:00, only 15 minutes was necessary. oh well. that's how the meetings go. yep, oh well. i wish i could've had time to finish cleaning my classroom. i'll get that done next week. i'm looking forward to my trip to LA. just because i really need a vacation. i've been feeling like i've been working 2 full time jobs... plus other stuff on top of that. well, hopefully when all of 1AC's concerts are done and maybe xLG not meeting for awhile, it'll give me more nights off, free to do relaxing stuff. just found out about the big projects and summer assignments the teachers have to complete and turn in. the first one is due next week! whoa.

today was sheridan's first guitar lesson. will be cool getting to know her. oh! 2 girls got saved in LC tonight. awesome! darryl gave an invitation at the end of his small group meeting. wow. cool. praise God. cool!

told the rest of the sponsors what pastor steve asked me to do. it's a tough decision, but i know that either way, God will provide... whether it be continued strength for me if i stay or provision for the rest of the sponsors and the club while i'm gone. i just want to be sure that God leads my decision, and not be led by feelings or influenced by what people say. i haven't asked for anyone's thoughts. it's something i want to figure out on my own (with God). we'll see. i'll decide at least by the GB.
i really appreciated mark's prayer tonight. it's just what i needed. God is a such a great God!

 
decisions, decisions, decisions...
still have those looming before me.

on a side note...
today was the last day of school. man, this school year passed so quickly. i can't believe it.

one of my students accepted the Lord as her Savior yesterday. yea! 22 of my children will be going to Heaven. 4 students still have not made that decision. the seed has been planted. will continue to pray for those 4.

had a fun lunch at makiyaki's. 10 teachers hanging out on the last day of school and what do we talk about? school and our students. =) hee hee hee.

*sigh* i miss my kids already. =(

 
questions to ponder...

- should i buy my yamaha motif 8 synthesizer or the korg triton with built in cd writer... or continue to save for my 4runner?
- what is God trying to teach me/want me to learn today?
- will God bless me today?
- should i take pastor steve's suggestion and take a break from that ministry?
- when will the day come when it all comes out?
- how does someone, who claims to be your friend, disrespect you in front of everyone, then talk about you behind your back and not give you the benefit of the doubt nor have the decency nor courtesy of trying to understand. how can a "friend" speak to you with that tone and in that way in front of all everyone who was listening and speak ill of you to others later on. how can a "friend" be so hurtful?

many questions... Lord, help me know the answers...

 
well, it's been a long time since i've written. it has been super busy these last few weeks. actually, the whole month of may was just jam packed with stuff to do. lots of XP things to take care of still. this last week was very busy. had to get ready for pioneer day. even though this is the 7th pioneer day, it still gets pretty hectic getting everything ready for that day. amazingly, friday was a cold day! man, i was so afraid it'll be hot. usually pioneer day lands on one of the hottest days of the year. God really watched out for us. thank You, Lord, for that! it helped a lot. afterwards, clean up wasn't as bad as in previous years, but was still pretty worn out from the day. LC went pretty well also. hanging out with the sponsors is very relaxing and fun. i'm going to miss this time we have hanging out while the kids are in small groups. one of the sponsors cooked this awesome prime rib. wow. so tasty. yum yum. he's a great cook.

saturday was eventful. it was my last day of youth service practice. soooooo sad. =( i wish i didn't have to leave. anyways, we went to joe's crab shack afterwards. that was great. had a lot of fun. skipped glen's going away party at night because i found out a friend had to go to the ER. thought it might be gall stones, but now think it's food poisoning. there's a chance it might be her appendix. wow. she can't eat anything but white rice until monday. i felt so bad for her. went over to her house yesterday and all of us were eating steak, chicken, and other good stuff, but she couldn't have any of it. hope the doctors will figure out for sure what's wrong.

today was busy. (how often do i say that???) had 3 XP meetings. wow. had to work on report cards. got to see the 1AC cd cover. looks cool! that's exciting. pastor steve met with aneldy, dave, and i. he asked us how our spiritual walks are, what we're involved in, what ministries we were serving in, how we're getting fed, which ministries we lead, etc. after i listed mine, pastor steve said i was slightly "over the limit". but you know what? i forgot to tell him about mag team. so.... i think now, i'm really over the limit. hmmm. it's difficult to leave things you enjoy. it's tough having to make those kind of decisions. i know it works out in the end, but it's just not a decision you want to have to make, especially when you're told you need to do, rather than come to that decision yourself.

had a good talk with pam last night. i think we talked for about 4 hours. wow. pam's great. have more things on my mind now. in my devotions, it said we may not understand God's sovereignty and His plans. yep, i don't. whenever i read verses, i ask God what He wants me to learn. i'm not sure this time. in some ways it scares me because i'm wondering if something bad is going to happen. at the same time, it's comforting because even though something bad happens, i'm in God's care. it's hard though not knowing. but that's what having faith is all about, isn't it? that's what i want.

only 4 more days of school. i'm actually not that excited about that. i'm going to miss my kids. i'm going to miss seeing my old kids too. i love it when my old kids come back after school and during lunch to visit me. i see how much they grow. man, i wish that i could still see them. i'm sad about that. after this week, i'll have to start packing up all my stuff. not looking forward to that. it'll be different. won't be as convenient to do my church stuff now too. mostly, i'll miss my kids! awww. my kids. =( makes me sad. wish you could meet my kids. they are the greatest. my old kids too! my kids are the best. makes me wish i had my own. some day! =)