my friend gave birth to her 2nd son!
welcome, Christian James Nichols!
i haven't been getting much sleep lately. usually i spend my summer catching up on my sleep deprived school year, but this summer i haven't had that luxury. went to sleep at 5:00 this morning. was in tahoe sunday night-wednesday late afternoon. when i got back, found out about pastor steve's assignments for the meeting thursday, but had worship team practice. didn't get home from practice 'til 10:15. started working on xP stuff at 11:15 pm. didn't finish until almost 5 am. got out of bed this morning at 9:30. had to email my assignments to pastor steve. 3 xP meetings... one tonight, 2 on sunday. right now, am waiting for pat to send me what he wants on the message slides. i hope i can finish it before the meeting otherwise i'll have to work on it tonight after the meeting and stay up again.
i'm really looking forward to this sunday's xP service. being able to lead the worship has been awesome. wow. i enjoy it tremendously. i'm bummed that i'll be missing xP next sunday. wish i didn't have to.
have you ever had an experience that made such an impact on you that the effects of it remain even after years and years have passed? was reminded of something this past week. even after all this time, i still remember the hurt i felt and the pain it caused. nothing has hurt more. i remember every detail of that day, like a movie playing over and over again in my mind. to witness something like that is horrible. hope no one ever has to see that. wish i hadn't seen it, but i did and now it's left it's scar. that's what i get for being observant. i try not to think about it and i haven't thought about it in awhile. why does it come up then? because even when i try to forget it, people bring it up. why do they do that? please stop. i was blown away by what i heard on sunday. man. i really don't know what i would do. it's not funny. i don't know if i should let it be funny. am i supposed to? does allowing it to be humorous make the memory of it less painful? does letting it be funny mean that it wasn't that big of a deal in the first place? or does not seeing the humor in it mean that i haven't healed and gotten over the hurt and that i should? well, i'm not going to think about it anymore... as long as people stop bringing it up. eh, someday the memory will fade, i know. just hope that part of my past will never be revisited again... ever.
today my verse of the day was 1 thessalonians 5:18... to always be thankful. yep, there still is a lot to be thankful for. #1 for my family, #2 for my friends, #3 for God not allowing anything more than i can handle, #4 for God's faithfulness and sovereignty, #5 for the privilege of serving in xP!!!!!
verse of the day:
Psalm 73:26 NIV
"My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever."
