i know it should bring comfort knowing that you're being refined, being shaped day by day through each incident and trial... that through each trial and testing, God is using them to mold you and teach you. yet amidst all this, it's easy to lose sight of the end... or rather lose sight of the goal. for through each trial and testing, through each tear that falls and despite every pain that pierces the shattered heart, God is working. God is in control. yet in these times, it's easy to forget. you can't see it, yet you know it's true. you struggle to maintain that faith... that child-like faith... the one that God desires most. you long to have it, to not worry. you read that worry is a sin... because with it comes a lack of faith... a lack of trust in God... in One who is most worthy and because it instead shifts the focus on your own capabilities and strength. is your strength greater? or is God's? have you relinquished it to Him? it's a constant battle... to not be in control and be in absolute total surrender... to give all and not just part. to recognize that worrying will do no good... that to worry about things would be like you trying to have control over the unknown. there can only be one in control. who already has that post? it actually seems silly when you think about it. if one is in control, the One who has already claimed victory, then why worry? there should be no fear of the unknown... there should be no fear of the future because God knows and God sees... do you trust Him? He will work it all out... all of it. yet you see life... and all that is in it... and you wonder and you cry and you're scared... you need His healing... for the wounds that are so deep. you tell yourself you will not be defeated... you will not waver... you will stand strong and tall, with head held high despite your innermost being screaming out otherwise. you choose to live life the way God intended... sheltered by His loving hand and His care, comforted by His unfailing goodness and faithfulness, and resting on His promises. that despite human frailities, God still prevails. and He will prevail. and that and that alone is all you need to know.