Played piano for Aneldy and Kevin's wedding this past Saturday. They chose an eclectic bunch of songs for their wedding: Chris Rice's "Smile", "Be Thou My Vision", "As the Deer", and "Zip-a-Dee-Doo-Dah." How odd, but hey, it was their wedding. This was the first wedding that I've been to that started exactly at the time it was supposed to-- 2:30 PM ON THE DOT. Huge props to them for making that happen. The banquet was fun. Very interesting people at my table. Didn't know half of them, but had a great time. Got to dance =) but had to leave early. =(

Through the course of meeting new people, these 2 things seem to come as a shock to most:
#1- Yes, I am 100% Chinese.
#2- Yes, I am really 29 years old.

I'm not quite sure how to take it when people don't believe that I am Chinese. As one guy commented, "I thought you were half of something." I'm not sure what it is exactly that makes me look non-Chinese. The eyes? Hair? Complexion? Strange.

The age thing... well, I guess that is a compliment... unless it means I look immature. Hmmm. Eh, I don't care. Could be worse.

Switch to a different subject...
Change. I hate change. Was commenting to a friend the other day how I am a creature of habit. It's comfortable. It's comforting. It's like a warm fuzzy blanket on a cold and stormy day. Most of the time I fight change and refuse to accept it. In my head, I know it's easier to just accept change. However, in my stubborness and refusal to give up on dreams and ideals, I choose to ignore it, or rather defy it. Then I find that in my war against change, it brings more pain, hurt, and frustration than if I had just chosen to accept it. But I won't be defeated! And part of me wants to truly believe in "where there's a will, there's a way"... there's always a way, isn't there? Isn't there always hope? This last year I've lost so many hopes and dreams. Hopes have faded and dreams have died. Dreams don't come true. There is no hope. In the end what is left? In my humanistic view, there is nothing left except for pain. And on days where I'm tired and susceptible to Satan's attacks, all I feel is the pain and hurt and sadness.

However, there is hope... hope in my Savior... hope in my Lord and Everlasting Father... hope in the One who is most worthy... One who will wipe away the past. Psalm 84:6- "When they walk through the Valley of Weeping, it will become a place of refreshing springs, where pools of blessing collect after the rains!" What an awesome God we have!

So, actually, change is okay because God is the constant. God is sovereign. God is in control. God holds my future. And that's all I need to know. =)