Tomorrow I am getting married.
It doesn't seem real. I've dreamed and waited for this day and yet now that it's here, I can't believe it's even happening. I have all these emotions-- it's so overwhelming. On top of all the feelings about the wedding, my heart is saddened by the fact that my great-aunt passed away this week. Thinking about it makes me want to cry. I loved her. I miss her. She was such an awesome lady. I feel guilty being excited about the wedding... like I'm disrespecting her memory by thinking about my special day instead of about her. I know she would probably tell me not to feel that way. Even though she was sick, she took time to get us a wedding present and write a super card. It's she great? Because of the honeymoon, I won't be able to make any of the services. Even if I wasn't gone, you know those stupid Chinese rules about not going to a funeral after you get married. I don't care. I wish I could go. Visit my cousin's website for pictures of my wonderful great-aunt, Shan Shan Yuen a.k.a. Auntie Shan Shan a.k.a. San Yee Pau.

Other news:
- May 29th marked my last Sunday attending and serving at Bay Area Chinese Bible Church. It's a weird feeling to leave the only church I've known. That church has been my life... my entire existence has included that church. At my last service, Pastor Pat said a few words. My leadership team gave me a going away present (an iPod shuffle). I couldn't help but cry.
- I now attend San Francisco Bible Church. I am trying not to compare and be biased towards my old church, but it's proving to be quite difficult, especially with the differences in music style. That is a huge thing for me and it's become a huge obstacle in my ability and willingness to fully embrace SFBC as my own. I miss leading worship and hearing good music. I don't know what to do.
- On the job front... as of July 1st I will be officially unemployed. I resigned from working at CCS. Honestly, I am extremely happy about that. What a relief to done! I have no regrets about leaving that place. Am looking for another job. Have some prospects, but nothing solid yet.

To sum up, my life is changing. A new husband, new city, new house, new church, new job, new name (Hillary Wong!). WOW! All this from someone who usually stays away from change... me... the person who orders that same thing at a restaurant, the person who's kept her hairstyle the same for years, who's developed a routine for doing things and is quite comfortable and content in staying that way. Ahh...

So why I am doing all this? Because I fell in love with a man named Stephen Wong and we are getting married on Saturday!!!!!! WOOHOO! =)